All posts for the month April, 2016

Kicks, Cravings and the 20 Week scan!

Published April 26, 2016 by Mumumental

I was quite happily plodding along with pregnancy at this point, although I had the bleed I was really lucky with sickness. I’d only had 2 days of morning sickness between 6 and 7 weeks, both happened at the same time at work and I felt fine immediately afterwards. People constantly asked me about cravings and I didn’t really think I had any at the time .. but looking back I definitely did.

I am a vegetarian and I remember being really annoyed because the father had cooked himself dinner one night, and I so badly wanted to eat whatever it was I could smell. It turned out to be gammon! I was gutted I wanted to eat it, but I didn’t of course!

I did however go through many other food phases throughout. I was obsessed with McDonalds hash browns. I wanted them all of the time, I think I had about 6 mcdonalds breakfasts over a few weeks before I got over that craving and they eventually made me feel sick. I then just wanted vegetable spring rolls, I ate these a lot, until 1 night I had 4 large spring rolls for dinner, then threw them up shortly after. That was the end of that craving. I loved just vegetables in gravy for a while, and continued to eat this quite a lot throughout.

I randomly one morning had a craving for french toast, however I had never made this and hadn’t eaten french toast since I was a little girl. So the father went to the shops one morning with the agreement, I would pay for the ingredients and he would make them for us. I got him to do this a few times, food is always better when its made for you!

I ate scrambled egg on toast a lot throughout, sometimes for breakfast, sometimes for dinner, sometimes both . . . but I never got sick of this one. I also loved tiger bread with butter, and the final one was mint magnums. I didn’t excessively eat them but I used to occasionally get an overwhelming urge to eat them so I would actually panic if I was running low in case I got the urge to eat one. One night I remember it was about 11pm, and was pouring down with rain but I NEEDED a mint magnum! I got in my car and drove to Asda, bought a box of mint magnums, and a loaf of fresh tiger bread. I remember walking to the checkouts and a few people looked at me as if to say, “You are here at this time of night, for magnums and bread?”. But when you get a craving, it needs to be fulfilled! It is overwhelming!!

I had felt like a butterfly feeling for a while but I remember one night I was sitting on my sofa, and suddenly! First kicks!! I was around 19 weeks and it felt like popcorn popping in my tummy. I was so excited, it is such a weird and wonderful feeling. I felt it a few times that night. It was amazing.

The day approached for the 20 week scan and I decided, after a LOT of thinking, to message the father and give him the opportunity to come to my last scheduled scan. Here is how the conversation went;

Me: Even though I know you’ve made your mind up. I feel like I should offer you the opportunity to come to my last scan before Dylan is actually here. It’s on 26th May, I can’t remember the time right now, and I know it goes against what I said in my last looooong message. But you haven’t even had the opportunity to see him as a baby, as opposed to when you saw him as “Cells with a heartbeat”. It’s the last scan I’ll get offered. I know you “feel nothing” etc etc, but maybe you should just come and see him moving around before you disappear for good. I know you’re “too selfish” and what not . . And I don’t want anyone there who doesn’t want to be. Believe me. I know I can do it on my own and I know I will be enough. But a thought entered my head the other day that what if in 5 years . . Or 10 years you had a massive change of heart and you decided you wanted to try and be there for your son. This has occurred to me before, but the difference with this thought was, it might not be your choice by then. Like I wanted to find my dad, I did. I got rejected again. Dylan might be completely different to me .. He might not want to meet you if you have been gone for years. I’m sure you have probably thought about all this, I dunno, But these are just more thoughts I was having as the pregnancy has progressed. I think you should just think about it a little bit before you decide on this scan. It’s not like you have to be there after you’ve seen him on the screen moving around  . . but at least you’ll know if you had any different feelings at that point, rather than when it might be too late. Also, the “too selfish” thing . . I get that, I do. But some fathers only see their kids for 2 weekends a month. Some more and some less but at least they are there. Yeah it would still change your life but not hugely. Anyway, you know what i’m like. Brain doesn’t seem to stop. I’m gonna try and sleep…When he stops kicking me that is! Night.

The Father: Thank you, I shall think about it. Night lady.

Me: Night, and thanks for actually thinking about it and not shutting it down immediately. Appreciate it.

The Father: No problem. Thanks for the constant chances to be a part of it regardless of my decision.

Me: Well I’m usually pretty stubborn, but its not about me this time I guess, so I can’t be. He’s stopped kicking so I’m gonna try and sleep now. Night.

Going through my messages now we spoke a fair bit after this, not about the baby or scan, but just joking as friends like we always had. It was really weird being in this position with him. After one conversation I asked if he had thought anymore about whether he was coming to the 20 week scan, and he said he would come.

Here is a picture of me laying flat a few days before the scan.

We met at the hospital on the day of the scan, I was so anxious, I had a clear bump by now which he must have seen, as we did live together. But this time I was going to lay next to him and he would see my bump clearly, and see our baby moving around on the screen. The scan started and there he was, looking bigger of course and this time he was sucking his thumb! I was so excited watching him move around as always, I looked at the father a couple of times. He was looking at the screen but had a completely blank expression on his face. I was a little upset as all I could think was that if my Mum, or Aunty, or Geri had have been there with me, they would have been as excited as me throughout the scan, but he just wasn’t.  I felt  like I was basically there alone. We didn’t talk as we left, nor in the car on the way home. I was too scared to actually speak to him in person about it so I messaged him later saying that I felt that the scan just confirmed what he already thought, to which he agreed. So that was that, I couldn’t really do anymore.

Below is the thumb sucking 20 week scan 🙂

Pink Or Blue?

Published April 26, 2016 by Mumumental

So as my bump slowly started to grow, I was getting so excited. I could feel definite flutters by now, and was dying to find out the sex. I really wanted a boy and I already had the name Dylan in mind, but as back up I had the names Connor, Jordan and Jackson. If it was to be a girl, I had Mia and Lily in mind but no name stuck for a girl as much as Dylan did for a boy.

I was so eager to find out the sex that I booked a private gender scan at Well Woman and Baby Room in Shoreham by Sea. I booked this not long after my 3 month scan where they confirmed the estimated due date as 12th October 2015, and I booked this for as soon as I turned 16 weeks which is the earliest you can have it. With this scan I was even more excited because you can take as many people as you like, so I took my Mum, my Aunty Ali and my best friend Geri.

I was so excited as the day approached, I was at work in the morning and I usually wear all black everything, but someone pointed out I was wearing a blue top when I had got to work that morning, and asked me if it was intentional. Which it wasn’t, so I then hoped that it was a sign.

Later that day we all set off for the scan excited to see my baby, and find out if it was a boy or a girl. We walked in the room and met Lindsay who would be doing the scan for me, she was very welcoming and lovely. I laid on the bed and she began the scan and asked what I was hoping for, to which I replied, “A boy . . I really want a boy. So I am sure it will be a girl!”. She replied, “Well, you’re having a boy!” just like that!

I didn’t expect her to tell me so quickly and I was so excited and happy that I burst into tears of joy. There he was on the screen, my little boy. She pointed out that he had found his willy, and he was actually playing with it for most of the scan. Typical boy!

The scan lasted about 30 minutes and it was just amazing. Lindsay showed us my healthy looking baby boy, from all different angles on the big screen in front of us.  We saw him drinking, yawning, and moving around during this time and I loved every single second of it. And yes, I did just say drinking! We learnt that they drink the amniotic fluid around them, and wee it back out several times throughout the day! I thought it was kinda gross, but somehow cute at the same time. He was kicking himself away from the wall of my uterus, then would float back to it and kick himself away again, like a little game. It was so nice to share this experience with my Mum, Aunty and Geri who all seemed to love watching him on the screen just as much as I did. I left the scan over the moon, I couldn’t wait to start buying boy clothes and I couldn’t wait to announce the sex.

My colleague Beka, bakes the tastiest cakes EVER and had said that she would do me a gender reveal cake. (Any excuse for cake, hehe) So I messaged her when I got back from the scan and told her. She was really happy for me as she knew I wanted a boy, and got started on the cake! I went out and bought my first baby boy clothes ready for the big reveal, to announce the sex in the morning to all my friends & family on social media.

I came home and knocked on the fathers bedroom door all excited and said, “I know you probably don’t care, but I am really excited and I am having a boy!” He smiled and said, “Well that’s a relief, they’re easier than girls at least”. He proceeded to tell me to “Always knock before entering his room, when he is a teenager” …

I went into to work the next morning, where my cake was waiting! I cut open the cake which had blue sponge and blue smarties inside. A few of my work friends were there and were so happy for me! I laid out my new baby boy clothes around it and took pictures to post online.

I would 100% recommend to anyone wanting to know the sex to book with Linsday Savage at Well Woman and Baby Room. It was one of my favorite scans. My friend Lisa who was also pregnant and 2 months behind me also went to her, and also absolutely loved the scan. Definitely worth it!